kux

 why does it feel that im a big mistake whenever you're around?

 with you i cant get nothing right... :(

 why is it that everytime im starting to run again and getting my pace i stumble at the same spot. everyone says to stand up and run again. but can i writhe in pain first?

ever felt that u know ur happy about something but that doesnt fill the emptiness within?
i think ive hit a new low.. should i be needing meds?
in my conscious mind i know that what im doing isnt helping me in anyway.. but i still keep on doing it.. is this my deathwish?
im not going to kill my self or do something stupid.. but then again little by little?

i know im not young anymore.. but what do i have to show for?
nothing to call my own.. except bills..
no one to call my own.. except memories..what cld'ves...
a career that i know im still not that good...
still learning to walk on my own..

but i know.. that i have to see the silver lining in everything or this will eat me up and plunge me further down in what i call my life..

help me look for it... :(

its true that the initial reaction is the most important to watch out for... it tells you what the other person is really thinking when faced with a sudden situation...

hmmm.. why is it that eventhough u know the attitude.. the imperfections... the faults.. u still find urself attracted? what gives?